Even still after all this time....

Nate, As you know, today as in most every day I couldn't take my eyes off of you. I couldn't stop myself from putting my face in that sweet little place inbetween your shoulder and cheek, mmmmmkisssy kissy even when you shrug, giggle and say "bap!" I'm totally amazed at how smart and wonderful you are, every little posture and position you make is adorable. I've asked myself a thousand times how I got to be so lucky to be your mom. Sometimes I say it outloud to whomever is in the room. Sometimes I say it to you when I hold you super close in a mamabear hug. Sometimes I say it in a silent, thankful prayer as my eyes well up in gratful tears.

 I don't give two rips that you have Down syndrome. I can't think of anything else I'd rather do than watch you grow up. You are such an amazing little boy, and I love every thing you do. Even when you say "doow" (no) it is the cutest little vowel I've ever heard. (Even if it's a little sassy) But really, you're not even naughty, and I'm not just saying that becasue I'm your mom. And I'm not saying it because "those Down's kids are always so happy" (whoever started that rumor should be strung up by their toes) I'm saying it because you are a lovable little kid who enjoys his life and has a beautiful disposition, which has nothing to do with your diagnosis. You're just awesome. There's no other way to say it. I've said it before, but I'll say it again... You're the end of the rainbow.