Monday, September 13, 2010

Shameless....

I've noticed something about myself;
I'm not as good of a listener as I once was.
I used to be a really good listener, and truly I am
very interested in what people have to say....
but what I've noticed about myself lately is that
I shamelessly manipulate nearly every
conversation I am engaged in.
I know.
I'm one-of-those...
I will graciously participate in a conversation all the while
maneuvering the topic until it pertains to Nate.
It's true!
I especially enjoy conversation with people that I don't know,
because then I get to surprise them with my unexpected disclosure
and watch their faces as I gush about something
most people feel
uncomfortable discussing. I love to see their
expression change
the more I share about my son, and am amazed
at the delightful conversations that follow.
I just love Love LOVE talking about Nate.
I like to think that one conversation at a time I am helping to change
the perception many have about kids born with Ds.
I will have any conversation with anyone at any time.
I will proudly proclaim his diagnosis,
and tell all who will listen what a knuckle-head I used to be.
I used to be afraid, but I'm not anymore.
I used to think I would have to make excuses,
but I wouldn't dare make excuses for this kiddo.
I used to believe I would feel heartbroken and sad,
but the only heartbreak going on is when my heart bursts with joy.
I'm only sad when he's not in my arms.
I adore you, Natie!

7 comments:

  1. Love it!! You're such a wonderful mommy!!!!

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  2. Can't say I blame you one bit, Jill!! Just look at that little guy, lots to celebrate & share with the world!!

    (and BTW, I just love hearing ALL about him=)

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  3. I'm loving this post too! love love love. I find myself in a similiar boat talking about Grady and much rather speak to the unknowing stranger. Good Stuff.

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  4. love love love that Natie-boy. Amazing how much love he can inspire!

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  5. Definately so much to share. I'm pretty sure our kids can move mountains.

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  6. I LOVE this post!! Nate is such a handsome little man! You can talk to me about Nate anytime! And I hope you don't mind if I talk about Matthew all the time too. ;-)

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