Thursday, October 15, 2009

Glory Baby

There are many times when I am with my family that I feel like I'm missing someone. Quite often, in these moments I will actually do a quick head count...and even after everyone is accounted for, I still have an emptiness in the deepest part of my heart. I lost a pregnancy in May 2006. I believe in the wisdom and council of my pastor, and don't believe I lost the child. I look forward to seeing our little glory baby one day in heaven. Have you ever miscarried? Do you ever have that feeling that someone in your family is missing? You are in heaven, little baby Kocian. But you are missed here, in our home...with your brothers and sisters. We miss you everyday, we miss you in every way, but we know there's a day when we will hold you... we will hold you. And you'll kiss our tears away, when we're home to stay, can't wait for the day, when we will see you... we will see you. So baby, let sweet Jesus hold you, 'til mom and dad can hold you.... you'll just have heaven before we do. (from "Glory Baby" -Watermark)


  1. I love the song: "If You Could See Me Now". It has a great message but the truth is we can't see them now. So what do we do. Go through times of sadness? Yes. But in the midst of that, focus on truth. Jeanne and I understand the "moments". Even after 34 years, we still have those times when we wonder about Charles and think about what kind of man he would have grown up to be. Some sadness? Yes. But we rejoice, and again I say we rejoice. The time of separation will only serve to make the reunion time that much more awesome. I can imagine your little baby and our little baby all grown up and being a part of that great cloud of witnesses. Wow! What a day that will be! Thanks for sharing, Jill.

  2. Thank you for sharing this, Jill. It truly touched me. In fact, it is hard to type through my tears. As you know, my one and only pregnancy ended in miscarriage at the end of April in 2006. I follow your blog, and rejoice with you and praise God for each of Nate's victories. So often I pray for you and your family, and I love to see how you all are doing. I, too, miss the child I never met, and look forward to meeting baby Kintopf when we reunite in our heavenly home. It's good to know that others understand that loss. I can't thank you enough for your openness and honesty, my dear sister in Christ.