I have finally conceded.
After four years of trying to describe how I feel about Nate, I realize now the language that I know has failed me.
I've made valiant efforts, but none of those efforts have come close to truly capturing the feeling I have when I look at this little boy I call my son.
I've said he is the end of the rainbow.
I've said he is the apple of my eye.
I've said he is the greatest blessing my family has ever known.
The relationship between Nate and his big brother Andrew is one of most beautiful expressions of love I've ever seen.
I have done my best to tell the world that his life is so valuable and important and worth living.
He has brought so much joy to the people in his world that I am still amazed when I see it.
I don't exaggerate when I say people line up to be with him, have their picture taken with him, have him reach out to them...
I am the luckiest woman in the world because this little man calls me Muma.